I am trying to hold back these feelings

That are controlling my mind

Not sure what to believe in

I haven’t received a sign

I once thought I knew the answers

When I saw the Goddess in the sky

Old memories that no longer matter

I still search for a reason why

I never felt I was meant to breathe

In the skin that I am in

Nothing ever seems meant to be

Stuck in a world full of greed

I wish I could start over

But I can’t just go back in time

Everyday trying hard to stay sober

When I should leave it all behind